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    Thursday, December 30th, 2004
    9:07 pm
    Hello again!
    Hello my precious journal...I haven't written in here in over a month....busy with the holiday/exam rituals...It's now storming outside...i kinda like the feeling of being stranded inside...except for the being alone part...but its all good! Tomorrow is new years eve...2005 already....shouldn't we be wearing silver space age suits yet? I'll have to bring this to the attention of the world leader and see what she has to say....until next time...aloha!

    Current Mood: chipper
    Sunday, November 21st, 2004
    4:16 pm
    THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
    01. Chelsea
    02. Chotz/Chotzee
    03. Chels

    THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
    01. Aloha
    02. moonshoes
    03. chickity china

    THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
    01. My outlook
    02. that i care about other people
    03. My values

    THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
    01. Procrastination
    02. I find it hard to open up to people/hard to trust
    03. My self-consiousness

    THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
    01. Ukranian
    02. Polish
    03. Belgian

    THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
    01. Being alone
    02. Scary movies/being in the dark alone
    03. Losing someone close to me

    THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
    01. Food
    02. Laughter
    03. Shower

    THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
    01. slippers
    02. hoody
    03. comfy pants

    THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS AT THE MOMENT:
    01. Matthew Good
    02. Ashlee Simpson (if that's a band)
    03. Shawn Mullins

    THREE OF YOUR FAVORITES SONGS AT THE MOMENT:
    01. Maroon 5 - She will be loved
    02. Ashlee Simpson- Pieces of me
    03. Matthew Good- Blue Skies over badlands

    THREE REASONS YOU'VE BROKEN UP WITH EXES:

    01. lack of communication
    02. lack of apreciation
    03. because we grew apart

    THREE THINGS YOU WOULD WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
    01. Communication
    02. Appreciation
    03. Trust/honesty/laughter/fun

    THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
    01. Sense of humour
    02. Intelligence
    03. Goofiness

    THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T DO:
    01. Sing- it's really sad
    02. write essays
    03. a flip on the trampoline or off a diving board

    THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
    01. Reading
    02. Being outside
    03. Dancing in front of the mirror

    THREE THINGS YOU WANT REALLY BAD RIGHT NOW:
    01. My bf
    02. to be happy
    03. to go to mexico

    THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
    01. Occupational Therapist
    02. Athletic Therapy
    03. Teaching people with disabilities

    THREE PLACES YOU WOULD GO ON VACATION:
    01. England
    02. The Caribbean
    03. Thailand

    THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
    01. Have a family (and never get divorced)
    02. Travel the world a lot and lot and lot and lot
    03. Give my mom happiness

    Current Mood: crushed
    Saturday, November 20th, 2004
    10:32 pm
    Right now I feel like someone is taking a pitchfork and repeatedly jabbing it in and out of my heart. I am so incredibly sad i didn't think that there was a feeling like this..i can't stop crying either...it's like it stops for a moment to let me recover and bang there it goes again...
    Bf and I had an internet talk and it was just really bad and we basically broke up on there...and he said that he felt like he didn't have enough time to himself although we hadn't done anything and barely talked since saturday and this is how it has been ever since school started...and he said that he couldn't do anything tonight or tomorrow and we didn't do anything yesterday and ahhhhhh...and i know that it is stressful but i think that if we just learened to appreciate each other and communicate better it would be so good...so i decided to drive to his house and i was like okay i really don't want to break up....and then i couldn't stop crying ...but he just looked at me with this same look the whole time and he said he didn't know what he wanted and i know i sound insane because that is how i feel but i REALLY REALLY want him back and i want to go to the beginning and start all over and make it all better and appreciate each other and communicate and have fun and most of all i really want to be happy and make this feeling go away.....i want everything back that we had and i would give anything to go back and do it again....
    I seriously don't think that if this relationship ends that i will ever be able to go into another relationship ever because i couldn't imagine going through this feeling again
    he knows me so well it is enough to make me physically ill....
    i know there are so many worse things in life but right now my life feels completely horribly bad and i don't know what to do

    Current Mood: scared
    Thursday, November 11th, 2004
    8:35 pm
    Fantastical
    Well today I was supposed to go to bf's cabin but i decided not to and now feel bad about that...what is with the constant guilt cycles....oh well i will figure it out some day..I guess its sort of like i've never really been in a long term relationship before so i don't know what i'm doing really...blah blah
    I officially am addicted to live journal...i think i have a highly addictive personality..it's fantastic! haha..
    I went to a pottery sale today...that was great fun...i wish i could be a potter, that would be a great job..
    Anyhoo i am going to go take a long bath and paint my toes...because it is sandal weather and all...
    I hope xstar and becstar have a kick ass night...you girls are so fun!

    Current Mood: guilty
    12:19 am
    howdy
    Well, it is the night before Remembrance day...or wait it is remembrance day technically...anyways I hung out with my sister tonight...we watched some top model, sex and the city, judging amy and gilmore girls...I'm a nerd..
    I was feeling pretty sad earlier, what is it about boys that no matter how hard you try to get a point across, you usually end up feeling like the bad one about it...I don't get it sometimes..i also feel bad because he's not feeling good...:(

    Life is weird..this is my favourite saying...but it's what keeps us on our toes right..yes yes thats it..
    anyways i should stop typing before i become the weird one...

    Current Mood: weird
    Tuesday, November 9th, 2004
    7:44 pm
    First entry ever
    Hey! hey hey...well I am just writing my first journal entry...i am so excited..
    I am supposed to be at Rumour's right now but am not as didn't want to go alone..bf is sick and i feel bad.
    so i'm now home on the computer...the story of my life...i really need to get out more.
    my sister is going on a mad cleaning spree and throwing out all of my face stuff...and for once in my life i don't feel the need to keep everything. Thank you xstar_ for introducing me to the wonderful world of livejournals...and becstar_ you have great shoes! i happen to have a shoe obsession as well.

    Current Mood: thirsty
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