Below are the 6 most recent journal entries recorded in chelsgurl's LiveJournal:

Thursday, December 30th, 2004
9:07 pm	Hello again! Hello my precious journal...I haven't written in here in over a month....busy with the holiday/exam rituals...It's now storming outside...i kinda like the feeling of being stranded inside...except for the being alone part...but its all good! Tomorrow is new years eve...2005 already....shouldn't we be wearing silver space age suits yet? I'll have to bring this to the attention of the world leader and see what she has to say....until next time...aloha! Current Mood: chipper (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, November 21st, 2004
4:16 pm	THREE NAMES YOU GO BY: 01. Chelsea 02. Chotz/Chotzee 03. Chels THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD: 01. Aloha 02. moonshoes 03. chickity china THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: 01. My outlook 02. that i care about other people 03. My values THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF: 01. Procrastination 02. I find it hard to open up to people/hard to trust 03. My self-consiousness THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE: 01. Ukranian 02. Polish 03. Belgian THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU: 01. Being alone 02. Scary movies/being in the dark alone 03. Losing someone close to me THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS: 01. Food 02. Laughter 03. Shower THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW: 01. slippers 02. hoody 03. comfy pants THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS AT THE MOMENT: 01. Matthew Good 02. Ashlee Simpson (if that's a band) 03. Shawn Mullins THREE OF YOUR FAVORITES SONGS AT THE MOMENT: 01. Maroon 5 - She will be loved 02. Ashlee Simpson- Pieces of me 03. Matthew Good- Blue Skies over badlands THREE REASONS YOU'VE BROKEN UP WITH EXES: 01. lack of communication 02. lack of apreciation 03. because we grew apart THREE THINGS YOU WOULD WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP: 01. Communication 02. Appreciation 03. Trust/honesty/laughter/fun THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU: 01. Sense of humour 02. Intelligence 03. Goofiness THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T DO: 01. Sing- it's really sad 02. write essays 03. a flip on the trampoline or off a diving board THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES: 01. Reading 02. Being outside 03. Dancing in front of the mirror THREE THINGS YOU WANT REALLY BAD RIGHT NOW: 01. My bf 02. to be happy 03. to go to mexico THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING: 01. Occupational Therapist 02. Athletic Therapy 03. Teaching people with disabilities THREE PLACES YOU WOULD GO ON VACATION: 01. England 02. The Caribbean 03. Thailand THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE: 01. Have a family (and never get divorced) 02. Travel the world a lot and lot and lot and lot 03. Give my mom happiness Current Mood: crushed (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 20th, 2004
10:32 pm	Right now I feel like someone is taking a pitchfork and repeatedly jabbing it in and out of my heart. I am so incredibly sad i didn't think that there was a feeling like this..i can't stop crying either...it's like it stops for a moment to let me recover and bang there it goes again... Bf and I had an internet talk and it was just really bad and we basically broke up on there...and he said that he felt like he didn't have enough time to himself although we hadn't done anything and barely talked since saturday and this is how it has been ever since school started...and he said that he couldn't do anything tonight or tomorrow and we didn't do anything yesterday and ahhhhhh...and i know that it is stressful but i think that if we just learened to appreciate each other and communicate better it would be so good...so i decided to drive to his house and i was like okay i really don't want to break up....and then i couldn't stop crying ...but he just looked at me with this same look the whole time and he said he didn't know what he wanted and i know i sound insane because that is how i feel but i REALLY REALLY want him back and i want to go to the beginning and start all over and make it all better and appreciate each other and communicate and have fun and most of all i really want to be happy and make this feeling go away.....i want everything back that we had and i would give anything to go back and do it again.... I seriously don't think that if this relationship ends that i will ever be able to go into another relationship ever because i couldn't imagine going through this feeling again he knows me so well it is enough to make me physically ill.... i know there are so many worse things in life but right now my life feels completely horribly bad and i don't know what to do Current Mood: scared (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 11th, 2004
8:35 pm	Fantastical Well today I was supposed to go to bf's cabin but i decided not to and now feel bad about that...what is with the constant guilt cycles....oh well i will figure it out some day..I guess its sort of like i've never really been in a long term relationship before so i don't know what i'm doing really...blah blah I officially am addicted to live journal...i think i have a highly addictive personality..it's fantastic! haha.. I went to a pottery sale today...that was great fun...i wish i could be a potter, that would be a great job.. Anyhoo i am going to go take a long bath and paint my toes...because it is sandal weather and all... I hope xstar and becstar have a kick ass night...you girls are so fun! Current Mood: guilty (2 Comments |Comment on this)
12:19 am	howdy Well, it is the night before Remembrance day...or wait it is remembrance day technically...anyways I hung out with my sister tonight...we watched some top model, sex and the city, judging amy and gilmore girls...I'm a nerd.. I was feeling pretty sad earlier, what is it about boys that no matter how hard you try to get a point across, you usually end up feeling like the bad one about it...I don't get it sometimes..i also feel bad because he's not feeling good...:( Life is weird..this is my favourite saying...but it's what keeps us on our toes right..yes yes thats it.. anyways i should stop typing before i become the weird one... Current Mood: weird (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 9th, 2004
7:44 pm	First entry ever Hey! hey hey...well I am just writing my first journal entry...i am so excited.. I am supposed to be at Rumour's right now but am not as didn't want to go alone..bf is sick and i feel bad. so i'm now home on the computer...the story of my life...i really need to get out more. my sister is going on a mad cleaning spree and throwing out all of my face stuff...and for once in my life i don't feel the need to keep everything. Thank you xstar_ for introducing me to the wonderful world of livejournals...and becstar_ you have great shoes! i happen to have a shoe obsession as well. Current Mood: thirsty (2 Comments |Comment on this)